self reflection

waiting is the most terrible part of everything.

when we wait for something, really hope for that, but it never turn up..it really dissappointing rite????hahahaha...

so, dont wait just follow the time...

HAPPY MODE

hye to all...

lame gile rase xupdate blog nih..since bz gile dgn schedule assignments n exam..so far alhamdulillah tggl lg 2 paper je...info skill n gender..n then wedding abg pn da abes n everything run smoothly...congrats to my brother and his wife...when is my turn??hahahah..no comment

now nih mood tgh happy...mybe ive known this one guy n he is really turn my life into happy mode..thnx to Mr S..... you make my life happy.thnx for being there when i need you..thnx for being my supporter when i really need it..thnx for being my saviour....thnx for everything my dear.

hahaha..rse cm hampeh je kn..but i dont know..when he gave his words to me it will somehow motivate me to do anything that i want..enough kilod..please control yourself..mybe i've got the simptoms..but i have to be careful with it...based on my friends' experience its normal..but u have to bare with the consequences later...

hehehhe...k la...wanna continue study..goodluck to all my friends who are having exam....

L E T I H

LETIH 

+

COMPLICATED

+

LOTS OF THING TO DO 

+

ASSIGNMENTS

+

MAJLIS ABANG

=

??????????

TENSION

TENSION

da la byk keje tbe2 cek account kt maybank2u duet tggl RM10.01.....pdhl bfore this ade RM179.00..geram gile...xtw knp tbe dwet asek hilang..hr tuh hilang RM100 kt maybank jgk..pdhl xpnah kluar dwet pn kt maybank...eii..kate maybank bank terbaek kt malaysia nih tp knp nk mkn duet ak...tp mybe ade reason laen kot..nnt la tnye abah sbb skrg da mlm x kn la nk tnye abha skrg..mestila abah da tdo...eii dgn keje yg berlambak nih...tang keje byk la laptop nk hang la x nk respond la...eiiiiii...

TENSION!!!!!

B O R E D

rase cm boring sgt sbb every week bwt bende yg same je...assignment, update blog, comment blog, pg klas, summary and task..oh my god i need new environment where i dont have to do the same job and work every week. how do u feel when u r asked to do da same work every week??rase cm nk muntah kn....itula yg kilod rase..sbb kilod da pning and penat.blog yg ade pn x terupdate nih nk kne update every week.dorg nih x bosan ke ha bwt bende yg same je...eii geram pn ade sbb saket ati.ahahahha..actually in 2 weeks nih i da saketkn ati someone..for that person so sorry..i really need my space.its not dat i dun want to *layan* u at all but i need to reflect for myself on what i want in this life.so sorry for dissapointing u.but really its for myself. enough for that..hr nih BERAZAM nk seapkn keje2 yg tlah ak tanggohkan sjak hr kames...da dasar pemalas.eh bukan pemalas la, tp dis week mmg ak xde mood langsong nk bwt keje..sbb ak da MUAK n BOSAN!!!FAHAM X????hahahahha..da la mlas nk membebel lg..nk bwt keje..c u later...MMMMMUUUUAAAAHHHHH!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

specially post for 

NURSHARINA AZMAN

&

MAIZATUL SYIMA KASRI

happy 22nd birthday

LIFE in UM

first day in UM was totally miserable not for me but for daa whole cohort. it must be a GOOD start for us to remember.first class n da first day we already get our first assignment which need to be sent tomorrow.i only have 1 day to do da summary n submit it to my BELOVED lecturer. ive already learnt bout da assessment last semester and it was a horrible course but still i can get A.for this semester i dont know how to handle myself with da new environment, the pack timetable and also i hv to settle down everything in my new environment. oh gosh its really testing my passion because its not easy to adapt in da new environment.hahahaha..juz talk rubbish about classes in UM n i still enjoying myself with my coursemate around and also my housemate.living in my new house is comfortable but still i miss my BINTANGMAS house where everything is there.hahahahaha...stop for today.ive not written since i moving out from bintang mas.this is da chance where i can online during my PBEY3102 class.hehehe..thnx to pn.foziah.....c u again next time...

ITULA KISAH ARWAH ALONG 

SHAMSUL BIN AHMAD

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di golongan org2 yg beriman

Al Fatihah

..AMIN..

holiday yg BERMAKNA(part 2)

ptg tu dorg sume blik kg.ak kuar dgn kwn2 ak.dorg ajak shopping,then die call uda ckp kt yg die nk blik kg n nk tinggalkan uda sorg2 kt uma.ak blik dr jb xde org kt uma,ak pg uma nenek.ade ude n atok.then B amenk ak kt uma nenek hntr blik uma.kt uma ak tggl sorg la smpi wan dgn B blik.pastu around 10.30 cmtu mira ktok pintu blkg soh cpat.ak ckp knp nk cpat2 sgt ni.die kate nk g uma k.ani sbb DIE sesak nafas.ak pn tros la g uma nenek.smpi uma nenek DIE da dudok kt atas sofa.kat sblh DIE ade nenek,atok dgn mak.ak pn pg la crik abg sbb abg pg mntk no ambulan kt k.ani.uda pn call angah ckp DIE da sesak nafas.tp kali nih sesak nafas die x mcm bese.pastu abah pn blik abg idrus hntr.mak long sume tunggu.smbl urut2 DIE nenek da menangis.atok pn da sayu je.pastu DIE smpt ckp "mak,klo kite mati kte mntk ampun,abah pon same, nor(mak aku)".ak sedih sgt.pastu DIE menjerit pggl nenek dgn atok.pastu ambulan smpi.slalunye mak yg naek hntr die tp kali nih die nk nenek dgn atok ikot skali.time tuh doktor bg bantuan pernafasan die da x bo nk pakai.pastuambulan pn grak.ak,abg sume follow 3 kete.smpi hospital DIE masok wad kecemasan.ktrg nih sume tunggu kat luar.around 12 la ktrg smpi.then tunggu.kebetulan pak usu ade lg kt c2.so die tgk2 kn.pastu x lame tu doktor pggl pak usu.ak time dlm kete ak da rase x sdap ati.tp ak ignore la mudah-mudahan x de pe.doktor pggl atok dgn nenek ckp da kritikal n last skali doktor pggl atok kate DIE da xde.saat2 die menghembus nafas terakhir kami satu family x dapt nk menghadap sbb doktor sdg menolong die.ktrg time tu shock sgt sbb mmg x expect.rase cm br td die gurau2 dgn ak.bile dpt tw die xde sume org masok tgk mayat arwah.nenek da menangis sbb DIE anak sulong nenek.kami trima dgn redha pemergiannya.then setel everything bwk blik uma.kt uma tuh suram sgt.lemah sume kaki ak sbb DIE da xde.mlm tu sume x tdo bace yassin n quran tok arwah.alhamdulillah semua selesai arwah sempat dikebumikan b4 solat Jumaat.ak xtahan menahan air mate time nk tutop n menatap for da alst time.and arwah pn da abadi di pusaranya.

holiday yg amat BERMAKNA(part1)

1 or 2 weeks b4 cuti ak rase laen mcm je..xde selera mkan,bwt keje x serupa bikin.ak rse laen sgt happen kt diri ak...then ak balik kg johor hr kames.2 3 hr b4 tuh ak dpt call dr org yg memberi makne yg berharge di waktu cuti nih.ak ckp kt die ak blik hr kames.mak ak kate ok.balik uma ak x jmpe org tuh tros sbb ak smpi kt rumah da mlm.then esok paginye org tuh da ade kt dapur uma ak dgn mak ak.tp cuti kali nih laen sgt.slalunye die byk bercakap bebel2 dgn ak..tp kali ni die diam je,tp ak pk sbb die saket.jumaat tuh uda ajak pg uma maklong tp xnk ajak die.so ktrg pn pg snyp2.then kantoi die bseng2 la sbb xajak die.weekend tuh pak emi kawen.but pagi sabtu tu ak die n uda pg jumpe mak andam nak setelkan psl pelamin abg,die pileh pak andam nye, die tgk baju pengatin die bg idea cmne pelamin nk bwt.then setel ktrg pg mkn rojak asam.die ckp die teringin nk makan.ak pn pg dgn uda.ptg tu pit amek die pg uma nek usu.mlm tu pak emi nikah tp die x pg die dudok uma dgn mak ngah izah,ktrg pn tdo sane tp die x bo tdo.die asek batok2 je sbb die sesak nafas.aj dgn uda n spupu2 nih g tgk late nite skali lg scare snyap sbb xnk bwk die.tp die xksh pn sbb die pn x sehat kn.then things goin on as usual.ahad tuh blik umah.isnin slalse rabu kames, every morning die akan dtg uma ak n dudok kt dapur spend time dgn mak.ak bgn tdo msti die da ade kt dapor.isnin pg die pg klinik dgn abah sbb sesak nafas tp xkene msok wad,ptg slase die ajak blik kg tp mak alya lmbt plak amek,so cancel,rabu plak nenek demam cancel lg.die mmg beriye sgt nk balik kg.seb bek abg ade nuar pn x keje.so kames tu dorg balik kg.die,nenek,nuar,ain,abg chik,abg,mak,mira n haikal.

HAPPY HOLS

hello everyone...
juz wanna wish happy holiday
i'll be having a holiday bout more than 1 week
will be back today..hahahha rase cm malas gile nk packing, nk g bli tiket, nk pg pudu, segala-galanye malas...knp ntah...bdn x sehat kot...been bz lately coz ade projek sket dgn kwn2 baru..so mmg after this mybe lg jarang la sy update blog nih..heheheh..sori...nothing much to say..juz cant wait to go back to meet my family,haikal, alya and people in hometown..there will be 3 wedding to attend...oh gosh...so many rite...i dun know what to wear, how to handle juz wait for that wedding session...after da holiday will be bz for school,pindah n kemas2 barang umah...so be prepared KILOD....hope to be fine in kg n having fun with all the relatives around..take care everyone,,enjoy ur holiday to da fullest!!!

JUST ACCEPT WHO YOU ARE!!!

hallo...juz back from holiday...short holiday.dont know how to describe my feeling...its good going back to kl but have to face of things n people myself.do u ever feel dat u've been fooled by anyone??n of coz it is out of ur knowing rite...hahaha..ntah la kadang2 rase cm hidup mmg nih mmg unfair but nothing is fair in dis world..u know right.. i know what ppl have been talking bout me n mysepf..as i go on wif myself i juz ignore it..the more i think the more i get hurt..i juz tell myself dat im good to myself n i juz being good good to myself as long as i dun depress myself.sometimes ppl can judge by ur cover..i know im lackin of everything but it God's creatng and i accept it...what the hell for those who juz say it loud about me,u r condemning God's creation..i accept myself who am i n U pls respect what has God created..hahaha...dun know la what am i saying...maybe ddep in myheart want to confess something dat really hurt myself but i need someone who can share it with me who have faith with without considering my physical and outlook.i know very much about myself and i know dat im not dat SO beautiful but i accept what God has given to me...so what...sometime god has a better reason why he creates u like dis n like dat..emo huh??dun know lorr.dat feeling suddenly come out...mybe its juz my feeling..k lar...enough for emo side...go kilod..u dun hav eto care bout people outside who really care about ur physical and outlook...if they really want to be frens with u they can accept u whoever u r....thnx for all my frens who really want to be frens with me and accept me whoever i am....

P A N G K O R

hahhahaa..exam da abes..sronok sgt..then pg pangkor plak..kite enjoy!!!!xde ape nk ckp sgt, juz nk kate enjoy sgt after exam..g AIM jd crowd HUJAN,then jmpe celebrity sume...pastu esok g PANGKOR!!!pangkor here i come...c u guys later...

otanjōbi omedetō gozaimasu

dun know wut to say..long time x post blog kn..act im very annoyed wif ny blog layout..i dun know wut happen to da layout...nvr mind la...abaikan je...now nih, nk reflect kt diri sndri what have i done during da revision week??NOTHING!!!!yes..dats da answer..tired of studying n doing things like workshop n etc...dun know mybe ive bored and tired wif all the works dat hv been given..all these 4 years ive done like da same stuff n feel like dun want to do it anymore..but anyhow it is a must as a students,..so to bear wif it la..no choice..ive another 2 years to finish my studies..some of my fren hv finished theis studies some of them r in final year already..how bout me??i only step into 3rd year...go KILOD!!!chiayo!!!!somehow feels like dun hv da spirit anymore to continue...hahahhahaha...forget about studies for a while...what uve done to urself as u will move on to 22???do u satisfied wif what u've achieved kilod??da answer is in urself...u know whether u satisfied or not...22 means more and lots of responsibilities are waiting for u...it doesnt mean dat u r old enough to do everything...in certain things age cant count...22??hahaha..dun know how to feel..myb its just a number dat everyone will face...seems like ive gone through lots of experience dat makes my 22 years of life are meaningful..for certain ppl myb in da age of 22 they are already married or get a child already..juz like my mom...she was married when she was 18..cn u imagine it??hahaha..i cant imagine if my life is da same wif my mom...i still cant face da life as someone's wife or mom...its really complicated...btw,22 measn matured..uve to be matured enough kilod in everything u do...uve to think of everyone dat revolve around u...not just enjoying life as ORANG MUDA but instead of enjoying use the excitement to improve urself to be someone better...dun act like a child anymore eventhough ur body size doesnt show u r 22..hahahahah...size doesnt matter rite??da important part is ur metality n maturity...k la...gtg..i think ive wrotten long enough...good luck for me for my final exam in mktb...feel sad but life must go on rite...so...otanjobi omedeto gozaimas to me!!!!!

COME TO THE END

at last...my asgmnt left only sociology..hahahha..eventhough its only 1 asgmnt,but its really make me feel tense.da asgmnt consisits of 2 questions but it really make me want to kill myself..hhahhahaha...hw am i going to finish it?pls help me!!!!i dun want to think anymore.it really tired and exhausted,...ya allah,pls give me strength to go through all the challenges u give me...this sem is very tiring,busy,restless,exhausted and i dun know what more word to describe my feeling about this semester....one last word
PENAT

hahaha..dun know to describe my feeling rite now..it jus a crush on a person which he absolutely not even recognize me..as usual its me who easily fallen for someone in my dream only...n today act yesterday la..i met da only BORJA GOLAN...day before he juz a man who played squasy n i watched him myself...n yesterday i met him to take a snap n he was very friendly,,plus he's a handsome guy so it makes me feel wanna hug him...rite k.shima???hehehhehe...

apela aku merapu kt atas nih...xpela..korg enjoy je la gmbr yg ak upload kt bwh...



BORJA GOLAN
peter barker

adrian grant

natalie grainger
natalie grinham
dr sheikh muszafar
with k.shima

GOOD LUCK

GOOD LUCK TO

KOO KIEN KEAT & TAN BOON HEONG

in All England 2009
hopefully u guys can make it this year...


TBH & KKK

AGAIN TBH & KKK

pray for their success to win da AE 09 k

BUSY AND MISERABLE

salam..
its been a long time not updating my blog
so busy with my life as mktb+UM students
plus,
hv to go to sports day n also
at da same time go to class coz attendance is compulsory...
as da 1 who is responsible for da class
i hv to find out about da info for class 2mrw
but i get confuse after so many questions being asked by my coursemate...
i dun know why there is an orgaization dat is not able to plan the programme well.
if they want to organize such programme u hv to plan it well n make sure dat all ppl know about it...
only then ppl confidently go without any hesitationas the result,KK and the assisstant will da victim..
poor them..
hahahaha
no la,,
juz wanted to ponder on certain things
n it really needs to be improved...

WEEKEND

today is saturday
n yet i stayed at home
finishing my asgmnt
[morning session only]
hhahahahah
paln to finish all da asgmnts
but....
as usual there are lots of disturbances in doing dat
huhuhuhuh
wanna meet rini dis evening
n also hv plan sumthing wif guppies
but dont know who to choose
huhuhuhuh
i hope i can satisfy everybody..
ryna,syima,fafa n erma
dun worry
i'll try to make it babeh...
lets enjoy together...
dats life is all about
so pls be prepared
hhahahahaha

S H O P P I N G

hello again..
dis week i had spent my time shopping
mati la ak kne mrah dgn mak ak..
act,
yesterday i went to UM to search for my leadership journal..
then go straight to timesquare..
its time for shopping girls..
wif fafa n syima tneh meet up wif erma n ryna there.
hahahah
we had great time there shopping n chatting n eating as well...
n we didnt realize dat we had spent about 8 to 10 hours there,,
it was very tiresome but i was having fun hanging out wif the guppies.
thanx gurls for dat..
n next
today, again i went shopping
but today i went to sogo n jln TAR..
i bought lots of stuff again
n again today most of them were for myself n my mom
[wut a nice daughter]
hahahahah
k la...
long time act i dun write such a long story...
no time for dat
[opps,is it rite NO TIME??]
see u agai later...

T E S T L A G I K !

ESOK ADE TEST LAGIK
hahahahahha
SELAMAT BERJAYA KPD KAWAN2

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esok

submit assignment

H O L I D A Y

happy hols to all...
to chinese
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
enjoy ur holiday to da fullest
n dun forget to finish all ur works n assignments

T E S T !

esok ade test
itu sahaja..
sekian dr KILOD

TAGGED

7 Ciri Lelaki Idaman Saya
1. mate sepet
2. pandai maen gitar
3. badan hot
4. berjinak2 dlm bab sukan
5. minat same dgn aku
6. syg aku seadanya
7. dpat bimbing aku ke jalan yg benar

7 Lelaki yang pernah saya minati
1. my ex primary skulmate[WMWQ]
2. KOO KIEN KEAT
3. FARID KAMIL[bntg mas]
4. andy lau
5. daniel wu
6. david beckham
7. liew darren


7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan orang yang diminati
1. suke sgt
2. rase berdebar
3. blushing
4. x keruan
5. rase jd manusia terbahagie di dunia
6. pikir nk pki baju ape
7. pikir ape yg die pikir psl aku

7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama orang yang tersayang
1. badminton court[tournament/match]
2. pg pantai tgk matahari terbit
3. sah2 la HONEYMOON
4. jalan2 dgn die je xksh ke mane je
5. rumah parent die
6. pg bukit ke gunung yg nyaman tok spend time together
7. tgk movie la together gether


7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin dihadiahkan buat orang tersayang
1. my love
2. myself
3. perfume
4. wallet
5. barang2 hantaran huhuhuhu
6. love ring
7. ape yg die mahukan

7 Lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk orang tersayang
1. tercipta unntukku [ungu]
2. sempurna [andra n the backbone]
3. terlanjur cinta [ungu feat rossa]
4. im yours [jason mraz]
5. atas nama cinta [rossa]
6. fall for you [die yg nyanyi utk sy]
7. sampai [kru]

7 person to tag
1. erma
2. ryna
3. nutz
4. naqib
5. faiz
6. dynat
7. asiela


itu saja dr KILOD

K E C E W A @ G E M B I R A ? ?

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2009 AND THE NEWEST OF EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE

2009 is coming n bring me bck to 2008 where i have learned lots of experience throughout the year..some were good and some were bad, but i have to take it seriously as it was good for the sake of myself...enough of last year's story...there's no room for turning back..i have to go far away to da future...
2009, is the year that is very important for me....dis year my father and mother have lost their job coz the factory has been closed down due to some problem that cant be avoided.this will be huge effect in my family as both my parent have lost their "mata pencarian".. as for back up, my mum has started her new job as baby sitter..thank god that HE gives us the rezeki for us to go on woth our lives..means that i have to remind myself to mind my financial budget because i have to rely only on my allowance..opss...i think it is too much on that...let me keep it for myself..
come to the class..there's one guy..i dun know what is his problem to me..i have realized it since last sem..last sem i still can accept it but a person's patience has a limit..what the heck is he doing...is he having mental disorder..as my new year's resolution not to make people hurt, he has challenge my patience..what the fuck of him...i hate him very2 much...who do u think he is?is he think he's very good person in this world where he can say anything about everyone?people like dat are not allowed to be live in this world.they are supposed to be throw out in the ocean and being eaten by the shark or whale...i dun know may be he has over the limit and i cant take it anymore....